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Anthem to Ring in the Changes:

This song has had a powerful effect on me since I first heard it in 1999 when I bought the album. Ten years later, I find that it has become my anthem.

On Friday, I saw my PCP and he confirmed that I have PTSD and co-dependency. He put me on an antidepressant and scheduled an appointment with a therapist for a consultation. I see the therapist today after school. These lyrics ring loud and clear:

PAULA COLE :: PEARL :: AMEN

Humility on Bleecker Street
Exposed my faults until I’m left defeated
It’s been three years into this relationship
This is longer than I ever could commit

But I feel I’m near
But I feel my fear

I’m standing at the edge of another precipice in life
Gotta face my steppenwolf
Gotta drag you through the mud
When I get there I will see myself
I will look for strength within
I will be a better woman
Hang in there baby, I’m the grain of sand
Becoming the pearl

There are no roll models in rock n roll
No women who could have it all
The long career, the man, the happy family
And here I stand and God I do demand it

And I feel I’m near
But I feel my fear

I’m standing at the edge of another precipice in life
Gotta face my steppenwolf
Gotta drag you through the mud
When I get there I will see myself
I will look for strength within
I will be a better woman
Hang in there baby, I’m the grain of sand
Becoming the pearl

I’ts dark in here-don’t know who I am
Memories come–I’m wading through the moon
Evil side–wants to drag me down
Will power–god, please give me some
(Im hanging onto hope now)

I’m standing at the edge of another precipice in life
Baggage from my family
Going back to therapy
I will kneel, be humble, tow the weight
I will look for strength within
I will be a better woman
Hang in there baby, I’m the grain of sand
Becoming the pearl

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